What do you want to be when you grow up?

A question you get asked consistently as a child, and you change the answer every time you're asked. This is still me, I have no bloody idea. 

It can't just be me can it?

I talk to some people who have their whole life planned out from 18 years old, I'm like how?! I mean if you can do it, and you're committed then don't let me stop you. Where was all this inspiration when I was 18?

There are so many new opportunities arising all the time. I can't keep up with it so how am I meant to pick?! Obviously I have some certain interests, and I know what I don't want to do, but I still find it difficult. I know I'm not alone, I have a lot of friends in the same boat, and my parents too. Maybe it is because I had no one to look up to who has had a successful career, therefore for the environment I've grown up in, that's the norm, to flit between jobs, create a steady income and support yourself and or family, and be happy.  I'm not saying I have to/want to stick to that necessarily, but if its good enough for the most of us then why not do that. 

By all means if you have a goal, then you do everything you can to pursue that. I don't and perhaps having a full tme job, having a roof over my head and paying the bills is whats getting me by then so be it. Mum and Dad I'm so grateful I've been taught to be humble, pay my own way, ask for help if I need it, be grateful for things and to try my best and to not give up. I hope you are proud of me in whatever direction life takes me. 

Demi 

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6 Things I'm happy about this week

Not my own image, but I love this little saying.

I just want to share a few things that have happened in the past week that I am grateful and happy for.

So,

1 - I have drunk lots of water, and not just this week either, in general I drink it a lot more than I used to,quite often I will go for water and not anything fizzy,which is good obviously. So I'm happy that I've started doing this,without even realising really. I just used to think it was so plain and tasteless (which it is) but I drink it because I enjoy my food so much I don't want to bloat myself,and not be able to eat my meal. I don't crave fizzy drinks anywhere near as much as I used too.

2 - I had lots of photos on my phone of recent events,that I kept looking at and thought I should get them printed out,and not have them just stuck on my phone/Facebook/Instagram but have a physical copy of them. So that is what I did,I got two of each so there is some for me,some for others. I've put one in a frame on my bedside table, now to decide where to put the rest. Photos add a personal touch to a room,so mine has quite a few :)

3 - My holiday for September is paid off,I just owe my boyfriend a little bit now. It's me,him and our friends Sarah and Chris,we're going to Spain for a week, on the 13th, 3 days after my birthday...not a bad birthday present is it? First holiday without parents, oooooooooooooohyeah.

4- I have managed to keep my room tidy for over two weeks (well I haven't actually been counting) as in - I haven't let clothes build up all over the place,I've not cluttered my desk with crap basically, and have put things back where they come from after using them. Clear room,clear mind...it's a thing right? Well that's what I'm going with anyway.

5 - I have managed to put a little bit of money aside this month which is quite difficult for me as I don't have a very big income, I said I would put some money in a pot each week and I've stuck to it. I don't quite know what I'm saving for, it's sort of a mix - just general savings/ a car / money towards my holiday. I just hope I can stick to it!

6- During the week it was my driving test and my 6 month anniversary with James - on the same day. Currently James is in Australia so we couldn't do anything,which was a bit meh,but nothing we could do about it. To add to that I failed my test, so it wasn't a great day for me,buuuuut then when I got home I went upstairs to find a parcel on my bed. So I opened it and in the box was a bunch of flowers, a good luck card, and a balloon with 'I Love You' on it. How sweet :') I didn't suspect a thing, it was such a nice surprise after what had happened. I've never got flowers and surprise things before so I was really happy,and he'd planned it before he even went away which was nearly two weeks ago,so sneaky :P and I know you'll being reading this James, thank you, I love you loads <3

So there we have it, six things that made me happy this week.

What are you happy about?

Demi
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